Process Again

I keep thinking of you

And don’t know what to do

I’m not like every conditioned girl

Who hates there ex

I’ve moved on to understand

I was blessed

With that blessing I grew wisdom

And overcame the things that came with you

Forgiving you isn’t easy just so you know

I have to relove you again like stubbing my pinky toe

I’ve never felt safe and complete with someone

As I did with you

But why’d you have to be so stupid and unlose

There are two sides of me: real and fantasy

I can’t choose one so this is what it has to be

I miss you even though you hurt me

Not considering my feeling like you were above me

The little shit you did said you didn’t love me

We have past and we have trauma

But I know you where raised better by yah momma.

Re-loving is healing

Hating you is not

I love to forgive

This is not half’s and the half nots

I care to remember, not to forget

Because we were perfect for each other

So I just forgive

I will never stop loving you

It’s not out of spite

Never though you did hurt me

We need more time

This is fair well or a goodnight

It’s just a morning nap

Not having the sun to bright.